*yawn* *fidget* *fuss* *fidget*
Aug. 19th, 2003 09:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zorathenneAhh... class...joy...
I don't want to be here.
I want to be back home, in bed, asleep.
I think I will take a nap when I get home.
Hee.. I'm supposed to be writing a silly little love letter.. To someone very special who I've known for a lil bit..
He's the.. sweetest..
*sigh*
It's not one of those mushy flowery "You are the only one for me" "You are the reason I live" "Your eyes are like limpid pools" type deals.. *grin*
It's just a love letter writen to a very special friend..
I've always loved letting people I care for know how I feel about them.. I always tell them I love them.. It makes them feel good and smile and happy and it makes me feel good and smile and happy..
But this one is a bit more special than that..
He actually makes me giddy..
Even when I was with virgil, I'd think about him from time to time.. And I really did miss him tons..
I still remember how we 'met' =)
It was like a little over a year or so ago.. And I was playing Aydriene, Woodelf Ranger of Clan Sleepyeye.. running through North Ro to get to Oasis of Marr..
He was in the same guild.. And his name was Lahru, a Ranger as well..
He seemed okay.. funny and nice and easy to talk to.. But what got my attention then was what we were chatting about in guildchat..
Anime.. Voltron.. G.I. Joe.. Transformers.. He-Man.. Shee-Ra.. Star Wars.. Action figures we used to have that we mourned over..
I mean he was just so totally kewl *grin*..
He was just so cute..
When I played as my mage Zorathenne, we'd hunt together at times or group.. Ahh.. memories.. We'd flirt and be silly.. and just.. talk... about everything..
True, we became pretty close.. but...?
Naah.. Never thought anything would ever come of it.. I mean why should it.. He lives like a gajillion miles away *grin*..
But he was just so.. I mean... the vibe he would give off to me.. His aura.. was just so.. so..
Soothing to me..
Sometimes I didn't even WANT to talk with him.. just plop my character down next to him and be silent.. Just happy to be in the same zone with him.. Or the same tree *giggle*..
Of course I loved him.. He was my friend. I love my friends..
But then.. I guess.. It became something different..
And I would think about him.. how sweet he is.. how we would talk every now and then on the phone.. how I would listen to him fuss over and snuggle his kitties..
Aaaaaah... snuggles.. he *loves* snuggles and cuddles and huggles...
And so do I..
We made up a small story about our characters.. Zora and Lahru are an odd sort of couple.. On all sorts of levels.. I'll tell you about it sometime..
I'm so at ease with him.. I can just be *me* with him.. and talk to him about anything.. He even was my ear a bit when I needed to talk during the 'virigl scandal'..
I know we were being silly, but when he told me 'wuv wu' that time a few nights ago, I swear my heart just fluttered.. I mean it wasn't the first time he'd said it.. we'd said love you and all that silly stuff before to each other.. But..
*sigh*
So I started agonizing.. I had to figure out HOW someone who I may never meet can make me feel so out of breath and weak in my knees (I'm so glad I play EQ sitting down)..
And when I did come to terms to it.. I told him.. I know I threw him for a loop.. I had to have.. I seriously doubt he feels the same for me as I do for him.. I mean.. We have to be realistic here.
But at least he listened to me and didn't yell "Get away from me you crazy woman!" Well.. he said stuff.. but it wasn't "Get away from me you crazy woman!" *whew*
*grin*
But I am so content with just being his friend.. if that is all I am allowed to be.. The one he decides to be with should count herself very damn lucky.. And she better give him tons of cuddles and snuggles and huggles *daily*.. And better not ever hurt him.. I'll hunt her down..
He is so bootiful..
He's my RuBear..
I love you Kirk *grin*..
Hee.. now.. how to go about writing that lil love letter..
Class has now gotten better today *giggle*
And it's ONLY 9:40 am..
I don't want to be here.
I want to be back home, in bed, asleep.
I think I will take a nap when I get home.
Hee.. I'm supposed to be writing a silly little love letter.. To someone very special who I've known for a lil bit..
He's the.. sweetest..
*sigh*
It's not one of those mushy flowery "You are the only one for me" "You are the reason I live" "Your eyes are like limpid pools" type deals.. *grin*
It's just a love letter writen to a very special friend..
I've always loved letting people I care for know how I feel about them.. I always tell them I love them.. It makes them feel good and smile and happy and it makes me feel good and smile and happy..
But this one is a bit more special than that..
He actually makes me giddy..
Even when I was with virgil, I'd think about him from time to time.. And I really did miss him tons..
I still remember how we 'met' =)
It was like a little over a year or so ago.. And I was playing Aydriene, Woodelf Ranger of Clan Sleepyeye.. running through North Ro to get to Oasis of Marr..
He was in the same guild.. And his name was Lahru, a Ranger as well..
He seemed okay.. funny and nice and easy to talk to.. But what got my attention then was what we were chatting about in guildchat..
Anime.. Voltron.. G.I. Joe.. Transformers.. He-Man.. Shee-Ra.. Star Wars.. Action figures we used to have that we mourned over..
I mean he was just so totally kewl *grin*..
He was just so cute..
When I played as my mage Zorathenne, we'd hunt together at times or group.. Ahh.. memories.. We'd flirt and be silly.. and just.. talk... about everything..
True, we became pretty close.. but...?
Naah.. Never thought anything would ever come of it.. I mean why should it.. He lives like a gajillion miles away *grin*..
But he was just so.. I mean... the vibe he would give off to me.. His aura.. was just so.. so..
Soothing to me..
Sometimes I didn't even WANT to talk with him.. just plop my character down next to him and be silent.. Just happy to be in the same zone with him.. Or the same tree *giggle*..
Of course I loved him.. He was my friend. I love my friends..
But then.. I guess.. It became something different..
And I would think about him.. how sweet he is.. how we would talk every now and then on the phone.. how I would listen to him fuss over and snuggle his kitties..
Aaaaaah... snuggles.. he *loves* snuggles and cuddles and huggles...
And so do I..
We made up a small story about our characters.. Zora and Lahru are an odd sort of couple.. On all sorts of levels.. I'll tell you about it sometime..
I'm so at ease with him.. I can just be *me* with him.. and talk to him about anything.. He even was my ear a bit when I needed to talk during the 'virigl scandal'..
I know we were being silly, but when he told me 'wuv wu' that time a few nights ago, I swear my heart just fluttered.. I mean it wasn't the first time he'd said it.. we'd said love you and all that silly stuff before to each other.. But..
*sigh*
So I started agonizing.. I had to figure out HOW someone who I may never meet can make me feel so out of breath and weak in my knees (I'm so glad I play EQ sitting down)..
And when I did come to terms to it.. I told him.. I know I threw him for a loop.. I had to have.. I seriously doubt he feels the same for me as I do for him.. I mean.. We have to be realistic here.
But at least he listened to me and didn't yell "Get away from me you crazy woman!" Well.. he said stuff.. but it wasn't "Get away from me you crazy woman!" *whew*
*grin*
But I am so content with just being his friend.. if that is all I am allowed to be.. The one he decides to be with should count herself very damn lucky.. And she better give him tons of cuddles and snuggles and huggles *daily*.. And better not ever hurt him.. I'll hunt her down..
He is so bootiful..
He's my RuBear..
I love you Kirk *grin*..
Hee.. now.. how to go about writing that lil love letter..
Class has now gotten better today *giggle*
And it's ONLY 9:40 am..
